I go to school in the city and have a small circle of close friends. I don’t have a girlfriend, but I’ve been hooking up with a girl for a while. She has a long-distance boyfriend, and I have no intension of breaking up that real relationship. It’s all strictly physical.

It’s not ethical, and I feel very disappointed with myself every time I text her to come over. Just from this alone, I think it’s best to stop seeing her.

But recently I found out that she is simultaneously seeing my very close friends who are also in relationships. So far, my friends don’t know about my knowledge of their secrets, but this makes me feel very disgusted. I think I’m a bit jealous and have started to have bad feelings about my friends because of their equally loose moral compasses.

However, who am I to judge? I’m at least half as guilty as they are. I wonder why does she wants to maintain many parallel and secretive sexual relationships. She once told me she wanted to diversify her sex life so she would never get hurt if one of her partners leaves.

I guess the best option for me is to just leave, right?

– Disappointed